‘ you can’t keep living like this’ said the despair clear in his voice. ‘Yes I can’ replied a very drunk ‘and do you know why I can?’ he asked. ‘Do tell’ said who was trying to tidy up ’s apartment to make it look at least a tad bit respectable. ‘Because I am an idiot that’s why’ said tears forming in his eyes. ‘She told me she was pregnant and what did I do?? I told her I couldn’t be a dad and I ran! I ran like a coward and now it’s too late for anything, she won’t even talk to me ’ said . ‘I rang her about a million times I’ve gone to her apartment I’ve gone to her friends, her parents her brothers even her cousins house and nothing! They wont even tell me where she is or even pass the message on about how sorry I am. It was stupid of me I know but I was shocked I was worried but once I thought it over I realised that this isn’t the worse thing in the world in fact it’s good, great even, but it doesn’t matter now cause she wont even talk to me’. ‘….’ started shaking his head he had been saying the same story over again for the past 2 months. ‘Doesn’t matter’ said wiping the tears away from his eyes ‘I’m going to bed I’ll see you guys in the morning’ and with that walked to his bedroom and slammed the door. ‘What do we do?’ said looking at ‘I don’t know’ he replied and with that the two of them left ’s apartment.

*6 months ago*

‘!’ cried ’s mam and she hugged him ‘what a surprise you didn’t tell me you were going to be home this soon’, said . ‘I got a flight a day early and I thought I would surprise you’ said walking into the kitchen where one of his mams friends was and sitting. Beside her was the most beautiful girl had ever seen. She caught his eye and he was sure he had seen her before because she had the most beautiful pair of eyes he had ever seen and he knew that he had seen them before because he knew he would never be able to forget them. ‘You remember my friend ’ said his mam and shook her hand ‘and you have to remember her lovely daughter , you remember her don’t ya??’ said 'You two were inseparable when you were kids! ‘You two use to cry when you’d got separated remember that? Said looking at her daughter. blushed ‘yeh a bit’ she said not looking at . She remembered him alright, they practically lived together until they were five and her parents moved to Kerry where her dad had got a new job. ‘It broke my heart separating you two’ said . ‘You cried for weeks ’. It was ’s turn to go red. The two mothers continued to talk about and when they were kids and and took it in turns to make faces and roll their eyes at what their mothers were saying ‘Do you remember the time you told me you were going to marry her?’ asked . went bright red and shook his head while was laughing at him. ‘I remember it like it was yesterday’ said ‘Me and were in here talking and in arrive you two you were around 5 and you announced to us that you were going to get married when you were older it was adorable!!’. rolled her eyes and stood up and said ‘as much fun as it is taking a trip down memory lane I have places to go and people to see’ she said and winked at and whispered to him ‘let’s go before they get the photo album out’. returned the wink and stood up saying ‘I told someone I’d meet them somewhere’. raised an eyebrow at them and they ran out of the house laughing. ‘Nice one!!’ said . ‘Now tell me more about this somewhere’. They ended up taking their own trip down memory lane and they shared their first kiss that night as well. Well their first ‘proper’ one anyway. For the next 4 months they became inseparable. Their families were happy for them and didn’t seem to mind that was one quarter of a famous boy band, to her he was still the same little boy that used to rescue her from spiders in the sandbox. Then told some news that changed everything……..

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‘ rang me again today looking for you’ said Keira looking at her best friend. ‘And?’ said looking at her ‘that lad gets more drunk every time I talk to him’ said Keira, she sounded worried. ‘I meant what did you say to him’ said . ‘What you told me to’ replied Keira sighing. looked at her ‘what are you sighing at me for? You were the first one to curse him to hell so don’t sigh at me pretending that you’re great and I’m not‘ said angrily. ‘Relax!!’ Cried Keira ‘all that anger can’t be good for the baby‘. Keira looked at her friend she was 4 months gone and Keira still couldn’t believe it. Don’t you think you’re taking this a bit far? Said Keira I mean I know it was bad what he did to you but the lad was scared for god’s sake I mean come on? Think about how scared you were when you first found out….’Yeh but the difference was I didn’t try and run away from the whole thing did I?? Interupted . Well…started Keira… you couldn’t could you? ' Shut up Keira said throwing a pillow at her. ‘I’m just saying ' said Keira ‘you’re one stubborn lady and I know you want to get back with and I know wants to get back with you and I know nothing would make you happier than for the both of you to raise this baby together’ finished Keira. ‘And what’s your point?’ said not looking at her best friend. ‘Like I said you’re very stubborn’.

*4 months ago*

and lay on their backs on the hills of the north beach looking up at the stars. ‘I love you’ said it was the first time he said it and he was hoping would say it back, not that he was worried because he knew when he looked in her eyes he saw love. ‘I love you too’ said smiling at him. ‘You know what?’ said turning and lying on his elbow so he was looking down on her. ‘What?’ asked ‘I was right’ he replied. ‘When’ asked again. ‘When I was 5 I said I was going to marry you, and I was right’ he said laying back down. ‘Keep dreaming ’ was all said. They sat in silence for a while and then sat up and said ‘ I’ve something important to tell you’. ‘You’re not moving to Kerry again are you’ he said sitting up as well. Smiling he looked in her eyes and noticed the worry in them. ‘What is it? He asked getting worried. ‘Im pregnant’ she said. ‘What!!!???’ I’m pregnant’ said again. jumped up to his feet and shouted ‘I heard you the first time!’. ‘Then why did you ask’ said jumping up also, this wasn’t going how she planned it a few minutes ago everything was great they had just said I love you for the first time and talking about marriage. ‘Y-Y-You can’t be pregnant’ said ‘Yeh well I am’ shot back fiercely. ‘I know you fucking are but I can’t….I can’t be a dad. I can’t be, I just cant I have my whole life ahead of me I-I-I have to start working on the new album with the lads’. ‘Don’t you dare tell me you can’t raise this baby cause you have to make an album’ screamed . ‘I’m I’m sorry I can’t’ said and he turned to walk away. ‘I’ll see you around’ And he walked away breaking her heart as he did. fell onto the grass and cried like she never cried before. She then took out her mobile and rang Keira and asked her to pick her up.

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was sitting in her living room watching the TV when she heard the door ring. She got up and looked out the window trying to see if it was but it was too dark to tell, she pressed the Intercom button and asked very warily ‘who is it??’. ‘It’s and ’ came the reply. stood there for a few moments in silence, she then said ‘what do you want?’ ‘Just to talk to you’ said a voice she guessed it was . The lads heard her sigh from downstairs. turned to and said ‘this is a mistake she’s not going to talk to us’. then pressed the buzzer and said ‘ look I know you probably don’t want to talk to us but please we just want 5 mins, it’s only us I swear no funny business but we just really need to talk to you’. Silence. ‘See I told ya’ said . But he was interrupted by the buzzer meaning had buzzed them in. Upstairs went to the mirror and looked at herself. She was a mess, her hair was pulled back messily into a pony tail and she was wearing a grey pair of tracksuit bottoms and a baggy black jumper that came down to her knees. It was only the lads coming up to talk to her but she didn’t want them to go back to and telling him how trashed she looked. When she opened the door to the lads she saw the look of concern on their face’s and she tried to give them a reassuring smile but it failed misablery. pulled her into a hug followed by one off . looked at them and said ‘Ok I let you in now what do you want.’ ‘Well ok I know this isn’t what you want to hear but we have to tell you how miserable is without you’ ‘Is that it?’ asked . and gave each other a look they knew they couldn’t just leave it there. ‘No that’s not it’ continued ‘We know hurt you but he didn’t mean what he said he was just scared’. ‘So I’ve heard’ muttered to herself. ‘Ok’ continued ‘ might of ran off but that was just a mistake, does it not mean anything to you that the night after ‘it’ happened he tried to get in touch with you to say sorry and how he want to help raise this baby, he’s spent the last two months going to your family and friends trying to find you to apologise and every time you ignored him it’s just hurt him more and more and right now he’s sitting at home drinking himself into an early grave’. stayed silent. ‘We talked to Keira we know you want to get back together but you don’t want to let him get close to you again in case he hurts you again but he won’t, anyone who spends five minutes with him will know that you’ he looked at her stomach ‘ the both of you are his life and without you he has nothing, I mean seriously you two haven’t been together for just 2 months and his life has fallen apart, so please were begging you give him another chance’.

‘Come on mate’ said he was trying to get into the car. ‘What’s the point?’ said who had giving up on life and all he seemed to do was sit in his apartment and drink. ‘ you selfish son of a bitch it’s been nearly 2 months since you visited your mother now get in the car and we will drive you over there and you can at least act for the sake of you mam that you’re not suicidal, your life’s not in ruins and that you can last one day without a drink’ shouted from the driving seat. ‘Ok’ said and he got in the car and hopped in beside him. From the front passenger seat looked at him through the mirror. The look on his face reminded him of a two year old sulking and had to choice but to laugh. saw this and started to shout at ‘What? You think my life’s funny do ya??’ turned around and looked him in the eye and said ‘Shut up ’. He then turned on the radio and started singing along.

When they pulled up outside ’s parents house turned to him and said ‘Right go in and enjoy yourself and we will be back in an hour or two to pick you up’. ‘Where are you guys going?’ asked as he got out of the car. ‘Some business stuff mate’ said . ‘ Shouldn’t I be there then?’ asked getting annoyed ‘You’re no good to us right now because you can’t even take care of yourself so you just go in there and visit your mam ok? Replied . ‘Yeh ok’ said . ‘And send her our Love’ said and they drove off.

walked up to the front door and knocked. His mam answered the door with a big smile on her face. ‘ darling’ she cried you’re here Go in and sit in the living room and I’ll bring you in something to eat. opened the door into the sitting room and there she was…. standing there looking beautiful. She was wearing a pair of blue jeans and a red dress over them. Her bump was showing and could of sworn there was some sort of glow coming off her, had never felt so much love for anyone when he was standing there looking at her. felt a bit worried when he thought of how he might look his hair hadn’t been washed in days he had been wearing the same shirt for the past three days and he picked these trousers up off the floor this morning so he could only imagine how scruffy and messy he looked. walked towards him and instinctively put a hand on her belly. As soon as he did he felt a kick. smiled and look up at , how could he had ever even thought about walking away and leaving her, them. ‘That’s the first time it’s kicked’ said looking into ’s eyes which now had tears forming in them. ‘Im so sorry….started but shushed him ‘I know baby I know’.


THE END



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